心中刺

dissert 簡直係我心入面一條刺，我一定要o係呢兩日入完全 ko 呢份野佢，唔係都會好唔安樂 !!!!

頂 ~~~~ 好似改極都改唔完咁o既 ??!!! why ????!!!!

<<超人特工隊>>

禽晚去 greenpeace office 開會，好多人冇黎，但都照傾囉，而阿安哥仔黎左 ~~~ good la。阿興已經整好塊「大學生的聲音」板，係好搶眼喎，well done 啦 ~~~ 開完會一齊去食飯，大家有講有笑，勁開心。其實開會都可以好開心o既，又係一個交換知識o既機會 (弱智恆講 o既，我覺得好岩)，唔係阿彪講到咁晒時間囉其實~~~

禽晚班勁耐冇見o既豬朋狗友漏夜約我睇戲，話睇<<超人特工隊>>，o係旺角，就晒我。所以今朝就出左睇囉。

其實本來 katy 約左我今日睇<<小飛俠前傳>> o既，但後尾發覺我真係冇乜趣興 (i mean 對套戲，hahahaha)，又廢事專登過海咁麻煩啦，所以同佢講話唔睇囉，sorry 呢 >_< ~~~

<<超>>超好睇囉，我覺得仲要比 nemo 好睇少少，都幾搞笑 ~~~ 睇完就坐低吹左陣水，就散lu。

我仲要做 dissert 呢 >_< 救命 !!!!

最後一次開學飯

今日八點就起左身喇，想上我老細corlett o既堂，so far 都未上過 ~~~ haha，但點知架巴士炒車囉，o個架van仔都 on9 o既，亂咁 cut 線，最後搞到我遲到囉，得番兩三個字我梗係唔入去 lecture room 啦，咁外眼，我下午仲要見corlett，比佢點我相咪死?! 所以去左 cc 囉。

跟住上fishery，唔慣上堂，好眼訓，訓著左兩次咁多，但係坐我後面的索女 nancy 篤番醒我，唉，其實比我訓下好過啦 ....

上完fishery 去食開學飯，今個semo係最後一個sem, 所以係最後一次開學飯 ~~~ >_<
不過唔係太多人黎左，但 cynthia 都有黎，good la~

大家不停吹水，影下相咁，如常地和諧啦。不過最後一個sem，有d唔捨得，又好驚 grad，唔想做野呀~~~~~

食完去掛solar campus banner, 之後就見老細 corlett，嘩, 佢癲架 ~~~~~ 拎住我份 draft of draft 好快速望，10秒之後指住一句同我講: " Don't plagiarize. Use your own words. or you'll get 0 marks. " 我啞左囉。唉，佢實在太勁，我大獲喇，rephasing 都 re 到我 pk 啦咁?! 六千字呀 !!!!!!!! 救命 ~~~~

之後落左去打波, 好一場開學波，超開心囉，勁耐冇打波，好"支力"呢而家 >_<

我手寫我心

今日下午，媽媽整左 d 湯丸，問我食唔食，我依依哦哦仲未諗答咩，佢就已經同老豆講：「畢三粒比個仔！」，我冇回應，繼續寫我o既 dissert。

過左兩分鐘，佢地叫我出黎食湯丸，我一次過食了三粒，味道都只係一般，不竟我不太喜歡食甜品。今次係我有記憶以來第一次食湯丸，自自然然的，口味沒有什麼特別，但內裏有點心血來潮，現在心態變了，只想開開心心過活，不要讓任何事情令我不快。

簡簡單單、開開心心、快快樂樂。

在真實的世界裏飛呀，用心體會飛翔的感覺。

對，我要飛起來。

女生鬈起來

突然發現 ens 班女生很多都電鬈頭髮來，我o既睇法只有個：冇o個樣整o個樣

佢地大部份都老左 5 至 10 年，有d仲電個完全唔襯自己o既髮型，結果變左個施奶，可謂弄巧反拙；可能佢地見有d 人電得好睇自己有想試下啦，嘿，笑話。

又係o個句啦，我只係見過一個人電左髮之後o係會好睇左，o個個就係 juno 條女，其它女仔電乜鬼髮丫，好樣衰呀頂 ~~~ 尤其係d本來已經唔靚o個 d，算吧啦 ~ 東施效顰有冇聽過呀?!

雖然說話係難聽 d，但其實係大部份男仔o既心底話，我只不過如常做下羞人。

品學兼休

開左學都有三四日，但我都仲未番過學，是為休學；
我已經成為 ens 班同 solar campus o既邪惡軸心，品行直踩新低，是為休品。

而家我品學兼「休」，禽獸學生莫過於此。

GPA

今日下午三點出左第一個sem o既成績, 2.43, 都幾滿意啦, 其實我只求所有cores 都pass 姐，而家咪得賞所望囉。

billy 都算有人性，EIA呢科冇肥到我，我成份卷都唔識，essay又成條唔知答乜，拎個D都要多謝佢。今個sem 如下：

Chemistry and daily life C (頂佢，握錢o既呢科，得個c)

Advanced language studies in Chinese B+ (都話林光泰d咁o既老師係可遇不可求)

Systematics & Phylogenetics B (我tip中晒，拎係正常；又一次證明上堂係冇用o既)

Environmental toxicology B (我一直怪錯好人，菇菇簡直係再生父母，我咁都拎b)

Pollution and environmental impact assessment D (billy....... 唉，拎 d 其實都幾灰，不過有henry同 juno 陪葬)

Scientific thinking and interesting discoveries C (搵笨啦又係)

Adventure-Based Counselling: theory and practice B+ (一科正到震o既科目，又有得玩，寫兩隻字就 b+)

Critical thinking (C&V) D+ (我都係第一次見braoding 會比 d+人 ...........)


anyway, 大家d成績都好似唔錯，而我o係被solar campus燃燒我gpa o既情況底下都只係差左少少，已經幾滿足 >_< 。

對，知足常樂。

膚淺

我想做好人。

論文呀! 論文!

原來2月7日前要一定要見一見o個老細先，唔係份dissertation就要扣十分喎！所以呢幾日我都不停寫呀寫 (嚴格黎講係抄呀抄)，但難高好高呢，要成六千字，我一份journal都冇睇過 (亦冇打算睇，睇得黎都天黑)，都唔知點嘔六千字出黎。而家唯有用我獨門絕技，斗轉星移，先上網搵料，copy and paste，然後先慢慢搵 reference。嘿 ...... 不過如比corlett知道我可能書都冇得讀。

solar campus o既工作如火如荼，大家都好比心機 ...... 大部份人啦，唉。

2月17，萬眾期待，solar campus一夕成名。

寶安商會王少清中學

「大家好，我叫阿Will，係大家今日o既生態導尚員。」

今日o係嘉道理農場帶左一個中四團，一組黎自王少清中學(o係荃灣的，之前未增聽過)的青春活潑玉女軍(另加一個男生，咁都得? 嘿嘿)；佢地比想像中活躍，之前未帶過咁高年級的團體(最大都係中一)，都驚佢地一隻二隻會鵪鶉咁，擔心冇人show我，得我齋講咁就冇癮啦，我都係志在有人肯聽我吹水姐。

呢班女生團都 okay，肯聽我 "九up" 之餘，不時都會比 feedback我同問下我野。呢團係我做咁耐導尚義工以黎最輕鬆、最開心的一次，又影左百九幾張相，抵到震。跟尾o個個 "NG" sir又潮又趣誌抵死，呢d先係老師黎架嘛，又教英文喎，我不嬲最敬重d英文勁o既人架喇。

帶過咁多團，一般都係比d參加者叫 "阿聰"、"阿sir" (蝦條! sir乜鬼野姐?!我又唔係老師，又唔係差人?!)，都好唔仲意；「哥哥」都好d，o個班弱智o既二年班叫我哥哥，因為佢地實在太可愛，帶得都好開心。而今次第一次比人叫「導遊」，好似好 prof咁添，哈哈，但最高興終於有人肯叫我做阿 Will，我都唔明點解之前我次次自我介紹做阿Will，都冇人肯順下我意咁稱呼我！

對住班o靚妹，先知自己係咁老，不過我心智已經停止長大好耐，可能因為咁，總算同佢地傾得兩咀o既，呵呵。

越黎越發覺自己喜歡做教育工作，Greenpiss o既工作太政治化，始終非吾願。但離開嘉道理，便馬上要回 greenpiss 幫手。Henry大整古，又話得一個學生，去到先知成班鬼仔鬼妹，我地d英文相映成絀，樣衰都震。

之後同Gloria開會，其實只係proposal o既一d小問題，一切都幾順利。原來都知道我都幾大壓力，又擔心我支持唔住，呢d咁o既 supervisor 去邊度搵丫。仲有，我真係好鐘意同大佬Mic一齊做野，佢往往都會令你喜出望外的，的確功德無量。

Last Few Months

真的不想這樣子渡過我大學生涯的最後幾個月，我會後悔一世的......

不想，但又奈何。

Professional

I have been a Professional Environmental Interpreter.

自己好叻咩?!

讀左兩年半大學，又做左大半年 solar campus o既工作，開始有d做人做事o既心德。

每個人o既諗法都唔同，人各有志，千期唔好倚賴其它人，亦唔好expect人地會做好點好點好。人地做得唔好唔足唔夠，咪自己做埋佢囉，如果自己真係咁叻，點解唔做埋佢 jack? 一日到黑係都怨人呢樣o個樣係一個唔正確o既態度。並唔係人人對某 d野都睇得好似自己咁重，你自己都會有d野係唔著緊架啦，只係因為你認為唔重要先至覺得冇野姐，但可能有d人會好介意。所以有口話人之前，諗下自己係咪真係咁 perfect?

It is not the Road

My changeable personality brings me a awful life.

Since after the period of examination, nothing in the world seems capabale to draw my attention, not to say my ambition to engage in. Those complusory for me turn out to be the most discouraging. They include, for example, dissertation as well as Solar Campus. Ecology of Babblers is my ever first piece of dissertation (lengthy essay), which mostly, I guess, require a massive effort. Students who fail to acquire GPA more than 2.7 are supposed to take this course of essay writing, whislt the others would be crazily engrossing in the backbreaking FYP, short for Final Year Project worth 12 credits, costing double credits of the dissertation. Stupid people prefer FYP. That is it. On the other hand, being not a academic course in the university, Solar Campus, by Greenpeace, one of the most noted non-governmental green organization around the world, is another much more frightening task to me. The workload in SC conservatively guessed is just equivalent to a 24 credits in HKU. Never should anyone who have taken charge of something in SC do away with his responsibility or something he is responsible for, which would result in amazingly great discouragement to other people working together. Who without a strong sense of responsiblity and belonging, therefore, had better not join solarcampus as a core member. That's what I always liked to reiterate and hope people can understand beforehand. But today, I have already been discouraged by myself and my own duty since the most acute problems have already arisen, mostly due to my changeable personality. I no longer believe in what solarcampus is doing could help improve the situation of HK, needless to say that of the world. My theory, which Michael seems not able to agree with, is the Earth is on its deteriorating way and soon comes to a disastrous ending, regardless what green-groups, who keep wasting donators' money and material, around the world are calling for. The world nowadays has no more belonged to the nature since the days the crazy experiments and inventions contributed by scientists, who merely have a short-term simply definable propose instead of long-term result. This argument was quoted in my year 1 SCNC essay entitled "why do I NOT want to be a scientist?" and turned in to asshole Prof. Lee Kan Ji. C- was the outcome of my SCNC course, probably because it's no use citing the Bible to a non-christian.

The reason I am spending long time here writing so-called "diary" in English is that I am entitled to take part in the English exam of IELTS in early March next year. Essay writing is one of the major part of the exam. Responding to my informal enquiry, Michael personally adimtted that Essay writing amid the 4 aspects of language capability is likely to be the one which could most reflect a person's strength of English. I think so too. As remember, I said, addressing to Hing, that on the two days of the IELTS exam our English would be at the top in our life, which however, at the same time, acting as a turning point, followed by a significant drop. Both of us smiled, but it is probably true.

My study momentum has been fully broken by my academic conditions. First, I am destined never to obtain a honor of 2nd A, unless my GPA in this final year could be as high as 3.6 in average. I would be very pleased already if I get more than 2.6. Due to this reason, regardless of how much credits I am taking this year, it doesn't help and the situtaion will merely more or less the same. As a result, being adapted to a tappy life of university, I would rather take as less credits as possible. Let's see if I would be allowed to take as less as 18 in the next semister. There are two remaining cord subjects and I will turn out need not go to the campus anymore, so seeking for a postition at present would be very much advisable. Haha. Kiding. Generally, attentions of lectures are never taken as a count of assessment and by evaluating the prior history of courses taken and exminated I dare announce hereby that the exam result is absolutely independent on how long you attend in lectures, how many references or textbook you read, how many emails of enquiry you send to the lecturers, etc. but chiefly depends on your luck and sources you obtain just before the examination. It calls this The Road of University.

It's not the road! (咁唔係路)

Happy Birthday to Katy

It was 25th December, the day on which both Jesus Christ and one of our sexy babies, Pretty Katy, were born. Everybody around were supposed to be glad, enjoying this merry festival, especially Katy’s good friends like us. I got up bright and early. But actually there was none of things for me to do on that day time. Time seems slowed down and no longer flies as quickly as it supposed to be. I sat in front of the television for hours without focusing on anything, merely recalling my past, my old little world, and what I have at that moment from my memory like a sieve.

At about 6 o’clock in the evening, I was phoned and informed that there was a birthday party for Katy held in Juno’s house at night. Participants were supposed to meet at 7 in Mei Fu MRT station. At that moment I was seeing the VCD just borrowed, with a title of “Hana and Alice”. It is a Japanese love film and considerably touching. The two major actresses, who do ballet in many scenarios, are pretty and make the entire movie elegant. Looking up at the clock, I found I could arrive in Mei Fu on time even if I finished the whole movie. After that I went to wash up, got changed and left home.

At 7:05 I stepped out of the train onto the Mei Fu platform. I got Connie there. Being classmates for more than two years, none of us should be surprised by the good news from Connie that the other bitches would come later, some even for more than half an hour. We were there to prepare for the hot-pot dinner at which many food and beverages were needed for some 8 people this time. Connie and I were hanging around with the purpose of locating any shop providing proper kinds of hot-pot food. We found a supermarket but unfortunately it was providing not enough. We consequently took advices from Katy. Eventually two of us came to a shop specific for what we needed. Connie was so insane and was keeping putting products into the basket, no matter what I said. I stopped her at last, at a time which our basket was full with much more than enough food.

People arrived one by one. We came to a cake shop to purchase a “black forest” birthday, which cost $55. It was inexpensive and looked delicious.

We all went up to Juno’s home and were welcome by Juno’s parents. People, excluding I, started preparing all stuff for Katy. Some of them were handling with the dinner, some dealing with presents, some writing “heard-word notebook”.

“Beauty and the Beast” was showing then.

Katy was then invited to come. She lives in Mei Fu as well.
Katy prepared a well-set hair style wining thousands of praises. The dinner then began. It last for a long span of time. People were ingesting at a slow pace just because all of their attention was paid on the Disneyland cartoon movie. Frankly, I love that movie anyway.

Too much food was on the table but people were no longer capable to eat anymore. All of us, except me again, were cleaning up the table in order to be ready for the next part of the party. Light was abruptly turned off, and the birthday cake with candlelight prepared in advice was taken out in a warm and hear-touching atmosphere. Katy was delighted by it. We sang the “happy birthday song”, followed by her blowing the flickering candles out. People turned out to be excited and kept yelling. The cake was divided into pieces and delivered to everyone. Although I decided to be on diet (for my charter 10km), I ate as it was Katy’s birthday cake. There was no point not to eat, even though it is poisoned by Dr. Gu, right?

Here came the most fantastic moment that night. The present prepared by ladies was placed somewhere in the house. The game was that we commanded Katy to seek for her gift, making use of our hints in terms of the frequency of “do-do” sounds we produced. That is, the higher the frequency, the closer to the present she was. Needless to say, she got her present shortly afterwards. It was actually placed under the sofa. The present was a chocolate, a necklace and a pair of earrings. Katy was again delighted.

My present for Katy was myself. But she refused to accept. I made me sick.

Anyway, people were giving great effort, in the hope of Katy’s happy birthday. Hope she can be happy forever.

Hope so.

Merry Xmas

Merely 18 (3 courses time 6 credits each) out of 42 credits in this semister were contributed by cores with compulsory examinations. They were systemtics, toxicology as well as EIA. All of them were harsh courses, according to both of their contents and exam approaches. Motherfucker Dr. Gu turned out to be the most merciful lecturers, who repeated numerious questions the same as last year. The other lecturese (Billy and MK ) faked the repeat, though. But fine. Exam should be like that anyway. People deserve.

Ensian Jackets and Tees were delivered to classmated in Swire once after the end of the exam period. Again I am not satisfied with their quality. Juno and I accompanied Swirians to go upstair taking the products which were temporarily stored in Swire. Most ensian dismissed, with a few of us hanging around. Girls decided to sing k, and boys had to follow. Bill, Michael and Lucky were asked to go to Causeway Bay in advance and open a room. Of course they had no point to rejected. Nancy and I stayed at Katy's pretty room, helping her to deal with some silly but funny "Xmas gifts" for her hallmates. The mission then completed and it was time to go. We arrived in Causeway Bay by bus.

I hereby reiterate: I like singing but dislike Karaoke. Thus I sang least there. Guys contributed a good arrangement. Tickets of the film by Stephan Chow, Kung Fu, were prepared. At 3:30 pm boys went to see the movies, leaving the girls in Karaoke.

Kung Fu is not as good as expected. It is rather short and less funny and has a poor content, but the fighting scenario is amazingly spectacular. Chow, my true idol, has become more and more muscular and cool. I told the guys that I would soon have a body shape just like his. I am on my way to the Charter 10km in the coming early year, setting the target of 45 mins. It is absolutely not an easy task. I am urging Bill, Michael and Hing to accompany me. They seems enthusiastic, even though Bill gets hurt on his leg. I appreciate that so much.

After Kung Fu, guys visited the malls for a while and then dismissed. Dinner was well prepared at home. I miss my little sister, even though she is always with me. She helped me bleach my hair. I turned out to be a MK asshole.

I went to bed at 1:00am and was up at 10:30 am the next morning. Little Sister again helped me dyed my hair. The result was however surprisely poor and we could not find any observable differences between before and after. Damn it. How could I go out with golden hair? I couldn't stand it, not to say my mother. I ordered Little Sister to purchase another dye in black color to deal with my problem. As a result of a considerable amount of effort, time and money, my hair is now much darker than it originally was. That's it. Anyway, I had hair cut myself after that.

That night was Xmas Eve, which appeared to be a happy night. Needless to say, Little Sister were hanging around with her boyfriend. Her boyfriend is good actually. I like him quite. I refused to stay home, so I told my mama I was going out. At about 7:00 pm I arrived MK. Thousands of people were walking on the street. I visited this, visited that, without any definable purpose, like a body without a soul.

I am delighted that so many couples are having a merry xmas. That's why Xmas Eve has its merit.

But I found I failed to walk around for more than 2 hours. I went over to MK UA cinema, to see if I was still able to find any seat available. Wow, I noticed that there were 3 empty seats of Kung Fu 9:20pm shown on the screen. I queued up to purchase the ticket. It was my turn after a minute. In front of me there was a ticket-saleslady (actually a BT-like girl) on the counter. Followings were our conversations:

" Kung Fu. 9:20pm, please."
" Sorry that no more Kung Fu available at that time la wor"
" Then when will it be available?"
" Not available up till mid night."
" But I see it's still available for 9:20pm on the screen wor"
" Well, it's actually available. But all are in separation. One by one, individually."
" Um..... I am with myself alone."
" Oh... really sorry, sorry, sorry......" (followed by dozens of apologies.)

I smiled.

想入非非

完全無法集中精神，糊思亂想。

事情往往都會在考試前席發生...... but i deserve

本質不變

我大概明白何謂不能自拔了

My Journey of Adventure Counseling: The Past, Present and Future

Time files and the course of Adventure Based Counseling has come to an end. It’s probably one of my favorite courses I have ever taken in this 2.5-year university life. The course allows me to have real changes, most of which are different. How come changes seem to be different? What does it mean? How does it affect me? Too many things happened. To me it is necessary to figure it out altogether again, just after this period is being over. The course is over, whereas I personally have been ever first push myself onto such a challenging status in mind, representing another milestone appearing in my life.

Relationships of the past, present and future helps in understanding my significant self, including my motivation, feeling, and self-esteem, in order to better give and receive changing in healthy ways. What did I do? What am I doing? What will I do? All these are the question people have to ask themselves. I view the things I did in the past as a contrast to what I have done during adventure. What about beyond adventure? What’s next? The future outcome will always turn out to be the most valuable issue. It is advisable the participants equip themselves for gripping such a precious opportunity to bring themselves one step closer to the dignitarial life, as a result of valuable adventure. So writing this essay has its merit and I think that’s why we are told to do so. I personally interpret this essay as a personal written account, which is more of a mean of expanding and corroborating my individual growth than just a source of data in myself [2]. Writing what I feel allows me to figure out and reveal a greater depth of understanding about my own response to a specific context and to the whole experience.

So what exactly is experience to me? I have been told tens of various definitions. After interpretation I would like to state it as which create, provide and invent knowledge for the future. Why do we long for so-called valuable experience? The valuable experience is viewed as such because it is distinguished from traditional knowledge, which sometimes is attainable by reason alone. It is merely a kind of priori knowledge, whilst knowledge based upon experience is called a posteriori knowledge [3]. The learning from valuable experience could be a bit ideal and it still would be fine. After that I learn what I want, what I need, and what actually I am insisting on. That’s what I could come up with at present. But of course the issues are not just that simple. Experiential learning offers adversity. The appearance of adversity usually turns out to be an expansion of comfort zone, allowing me to rearrange the belief of life and its preference, mending some of my unconstructive habitats, leaving meaningless boundary and persistence, and even making a brand new choice of direction of life and focus. In the past, the faith on my religion was not that tough. The situation had not been changed regardless of how much related books read. I was tired of figuring it out, just because I lacked one single element in my concept i.e. the faith, which is able to solidify my religionary knowledge, concepts, ideas. I emphasize it as the high peak experience in this short journey of adventure based counseling.

Debriefing the experience is to shift an experience beyond just learning by doing. The major reason of debriefing is to allow participants the opportunity to integrate their learning. I have a sense of closure or completeness of my experience. In order for myself to take what I have experienced and use it effectively in own present daily life, I have to think about it and interpret its meaning, significance for myself [1]. I gradually learn how to expand the learning potential via the reflection and some application steps taught. The results of each challenge come to life every time when I could ask myself appropriate questions to initialize thinking and even mediation. I found this part significantly crucial since it helps me explore the activities from my own perspectives, generalizing to my own life and see how to apply what I have learned in the future, which help reach the goal we set at present; otherwise, things turn out to be meaningless and much of the benefits would be lost. Let’s keep asking ourselves “How can I apply the life skill that you practiced in the near future?”

So I think it is a good chance to answer this question here. However, first, at present, let’s have my future goal set, at the time when the trust has been built and becomes accessible. Well, I don’t know goal setting will give me long-term vision or merely short-term motivation. I at least, however, know precisely what I want to achieve and what I have to concentrate on and improve. I fail to recall any of my dreams I had when I was a kid. But I know how many I have accomplished. None of them. Whatever, I am looking forward to those coming. Well, partnership seemed not to be significant to me in the past. I built up most of the ideas and decisions on self-centered basic, seldom concerning other people’s aid, in terms no matter of games or works. Actually I didn’t know partnership is not that simple. Neither did I try to step out of my comfort zone. I was always confining myself inside a groan zone and struggling. Although it is likely to enhance my capability of rivalry, I lost many, which I found turned out not to be worth. I am confident that I don’t lack of personal competence while now I need more belongingness in the community, in the partnership and among the buddies. I will raise more concern and awareness on people who are fighting for the same things, sharing the same views and the same exact belief. During adventure based counseling, teammates which are working together to overcome tasks and even risks research their common goal and target. The existence of small teams provides me with safe environment, supportive atmosphere as well as positive model when facing challenges and risks. Partnership is a power anyway.

After a few times of challenging activities beforehand, I was inspired with the hope of insisting on faith. As stressed in the last two reflection papers, faith is now the most critical element in my spirit. Faith can enhance courage and confidence, as well as breaking down my boundary, which is in turn built by fragility of faith. Adventures in life are of various types. In normal life we are facing adventures, and then there must be mental pressure and the pressure of risks. From now onwards, my mentation become different, and I will keep trying to obtain my peak experience by my somewhat equipped senses.

The present is still my wallow in my lovely nature. Humankind in fact belongs to the nature. The nature is our mother and calling us to return, and enjoy her space, her nurture and healing, enabling us to become gentle and mild again and to recalling our amaze and respect to lives.

Challenge by choice! This is just to remind me that I am not going to indoctrinate other people, forcing or urging them into any situation. I am also reminded that it is my own choice. Challenge in the future depends. I can’t tell any. But why do I have to concern with the future at this moment? It is because although challenge is real, the real doesn’t happen all at once. It takes a rather long time. That is the reason why the real is not often beneficial to people who break easily, or who have to be kept carefully. But 50 years later, at the time when I get loose joints, I eyes become out of focus, and my hair drop off, I shall not think it’s a big deal because once you are handsome you can’t be ugly, except to the stupid who don’t understand. (1350 words)

High Event Challenge Day

I was significantly amazed at a time when I first arrived at the campsite, looking up towards the sky and founding two equipped guys climbing up onto two huge woody pillars. “Excuse me? Are we supposed to do it in the same way? It must be joking…” I muttered away to myself. People’s feeling had no differences from mine, more or less, as which I could interpret their facial and verbal expression. The night before the event I just read the notice delivered to prepare for it. The event was so-called “High Event Challenge Day”, with the formats including many challenge, collaboration as well as inspiration. At the beginning I was so attracted as the title of the event insisted in “high” level, compared with the “low” one which has already, however, induced my illumination of my faith for every single current situation and the much prospect for future life with a definable purpose and target. I was satisfied but in fact I expected and looked forward to it much more this time.

The day was properly divided into two sessions, namely the morning session and the afternoon session, which was arranged on game-based. Actually in total 3 part of games. My group, similar to the other two groups, joined two of them, in which one of them consisted of two sub-games for us to select while the others were preferentially assigned, were available. At the beginning I wondered at the considerately great difficulties of the games accounting for courage and physical strength. I was not worrying about my ability to deal with them but my fellas, in particular the ladies. All ladies in my group were my classmates being studying together from more than 2 years and I understand them well. But anyway they are brilliant. Everybody at that time was taking it easy. However, since it was “high” event, instructors gave a clear briefing of that day’s programmes as a routine interest very seriously and audients were all seriously listening.

The first game began. Our instructor first gave a speech, letting us look into details of the tasks we were facing. I know my bad. I am a terribly poor listener. I used not to pay attention to what people are talking. But I knew I had to, at least this time, once the instructor warned us, “Your buddies’ lives is now in your hand. Grab it hard!” Oh he is right. I was reminded that I was not having an individual show but was cooperating with my friends, my fellas. Most the time when a person places himself into the society, he is not alone. Everybody ought to insist on high accountability and respect to the others, regardless of whether he is leading or being lead. I am forcing myself to become a proper listener, telling myself and others, “Those who don’t care about fellas are even worse than a good-for-nothing.”
The first game focused on collaboration. Two people grouped together and helping each other to climb up to the Giant Ladder which consists of sever steps, some 2 meters separated from one another. My partner, Sharon and I was the last sub-group to climb. At the beginning we set a goal with comprise. At last our subgroup showed a successful performance. I was so delighted not only because I did it, but also because my partner said during evaluation that she really trusts me. I always bear it mind that individual showing up is definitely not a big deal. The skills how you facilitate people in your group, which outcome could not and should never reply on whoever, must be most concerned in a team work. I never viewed my delicate partner as a burden; I never blame her for hitting my face with her legs for several times when she was stepping on me to climb up. Indeed, she was facilitating our entire progress during such a successful partnership. There is a trust building between each other. A simple claim of “supporter ready” virtually will show its magical effect in participants’ heart. Moreover, at the time when I was trying to climb up to the fourth level I was so diffident and I didn’t think I could do it. At that moment my self-confident shrunk, but I had the incredibly strong faith to do, to try. Ultimately I got it. People break through their boundary in the encouraging and supporting atmosphere. The so-called self-utmost a person could figure out is a fake due to fragile faith. Personally faith is more crucial than confidence. The former is the ultimate element that brings great breakthrough. It’s my peak experience this time.

On the other hand, I call for experience because the best learning measure is to experience. Before I climbed I had been the string holders for 3 rounds, offering me many experiences and letting me know I was not just to hold the string, but in fact properly enhancing climbers in my group to keep going up. As a result, I frequently kept giving signals to my string holder and asking for help when necessary. That’s why experiential learning, stressing that participants learn in a situation at a real environment and improving the ability of self-examination via experience has its merit.

Certainly people with different thinking will have different feeling for the same experience. The 2nd game was abseiling in the afternoon. Abseiling seems to be the “highest” task there. Participants abseiled with a string down to the ground floor from the roof of a 6-floor tall building. Most of us had never did it beforehand. But I just viewed it as a simple game. I was tired and thus I rather let others to play first so that I could take a rest. They played one by one. Every time when a teammate was abseiling down people kept shouting to support him and applauded when he completed. This kind of encouragement is touching our heart; otherwise things would turn out to be less meaningful. During debriefing, I learned that most of us appreciate the support from teammates and see it as the point for their success.

I did better than I could expect. This is due to my strong faith in mind, in heart. I got it from this high event, which brings my faith one steps to a more advanced level. Experiential learning actually could be interpreted as a positive scene of a mini-society, revealing a nature with an affirmation, a convincing support by mean of various types of beneficial experiences. The appreciation made by participants, including me, all evolves from heart by experiencing others’ care and by feeling which in turn convinces life change.

I have new dignitarial experience.